SOBBING in his hospital bed, plunge dad John Hogan was refusing all food and drink yesterday as he determined to starve himself to death.

The tiling boss, who has already stopped taking pain relief and whose two brothers committed suicide, told medical staff in Crete: "I don't want any food. I deserve everything I get."

Hogan, 32, lay in torment as his daughter Mia, two, visited her grandmother. Mia survived when her father jumped 50ft from a balcony cradling her and her brother Liam in his arms. Liam, six, who landed on his skull, was killed.

A source at Heraklion University Hospital revealed: "John doesn't eat his food and won't even drink anything. Nurses have put a drip in him, but that's all.

"He's still in a lot of pain because he had metal plates inserted in his broken leg."

Hogan's hospital roommate, Manos Athnaeioy, 43, said yesterday: "Every day he cries and sobs. He prays all the time and speaks about his son.

"He doesn't seem to be able to accept that the boy is dead - but he knows what he's done.

"When he got to hospital he didn't remember what happened. It wasn't clear. Only now is he beginning to realise the truth.

"He tells me 'I love my son. I love my children. God forgive me. I've ruined so many lives. What have I done?' At night he cries and doesn't do anything else. There's a TV and he has a book. But he just lies there staring ahead.

"It's a terrible scene. His mother comes every day and is obviously heartbroken. She's lost her grandson and now her son wants to die. All they talk about is what happened. Nothing else.

"John just says 'I'm sorry mum. I'm sorry mum. Sorry mum.' He repeats this over and over again."

Hogan, of Bradley Stoke, Bristol, is accused of murder and attempted murder.

Prosecutors will today grill him for the first time about Tuesday's tragic events. After taking a statement at his bedside, they will wait for him to recover from his injuries before he makes his first court appearance. If convicted, he faces life jail.

Yesterday it emerged that Hogan's 17-year-old younger brother Stephen took an overdose in 1996. The tragedy came months after the death of their father John, 56, from multiple sclerosis.

In 2004 older brother Paul, 35, jumped off a bridge and killed himself after earlier trying to burn down the family home.

A resident who lives near Hogan's mother Josephine in Bristol, said: "John must have been affected by what happened, losing his father and two brothers in such a terrible way."

Hogan is believed to have plucked his children from their beds and leapt from the fourth floor of the Petra Nare Hotel, in Ierapetra, after rowing with wife Natasha when she said she wanted a divorce.

It was claimed yesterday he wrongly believed A&E nurse Natasha, 34, was cheating on him. Police say he was drunk and on anti-depressants. Josephine has been visiting her son every day in hospital, where he is under armed guard and round-the-clock suicide watch.

A hospital official said she is allowed an "almost unlimited number" of visits for humanitarian reasons.

A neighbour in Bristol said: "Josephine has had a tragic life. She's an adorable lady and a wonderful grandmother. My heart goes out to her." Yesterday Natasha's mother Elizabeth Steel returned to her home in Clevedon, Somerset, tenderly clasping little Mia in her arms.

Mia returned to the UK on Friday with her mother after being discharged from hospital in Crete following treatment for a broken arm.

Liam's body was due to be flown to the UK yesterday.

martin.fricker@mirror.co.uk

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